03 April 2014 @ 10:51 am
Twitter Post: Gerard  
Gerard Way @gerardway
3rd April 2014 from TwitLonger

For anyone concerned with interaction/fanbase matters:

I want to start by saying that there are a lot of really positive people out there. It may seem like I don't always see you but I like to think that I do.

As far as yesterday is concerned, the last thing I'd want anyone to feel is that I have a general perception of you all as overwhelmingly negative. That is not the case. In an effort to try and help people understand certain things, as a communicator, sometimes it is easier to deal with something when it is directly brought to you, maybe by someone that is confused. People that communicate and connect with each other have a strong desire to be understood. It was heartbreaking to see positive and supportive people take some sort of burden of guilt on themselves. You are better than that- and if you are someone that spreads positivity and love then you should know who you are and take ownership of that, because it is no easy feat.

But it had occured to me, that maybe there are some things about me you'd rather not understand. Not only do I fully appreciate that, I completely understand and respect it- in some ways I yearn for it.

I always had my work to speak for me, and when that was gone, this was the only thing I had. You'd rather hear music and see art, and I'd rather be making it.

The seperation between myself and information MCR related is not a separation of myself from the very thing which I helped create with everyone. It would be untrue to myself and what I feel, to disregard something I am so proud of and like to look back upon. And all of the related art, memories, and sentiments having to do with that special thing are, as always, more than welcome.

But a seperation between myself, and the gorey details of the goings-on needs to happen.

It has been a very enlightening and fun year, as I mentioned in a previous twitlonger. In a year that should have been 100% brutal, I feel like we found moments where we could laugh as well as mourn. That's a really special thing. But it has been painfully obvious in recent months, that not only do I not posess all of the information required to keep this up, I do not posess the fortitude. It has never been my thing to explain, though this year I feel like I've done that quite a bit. And that is surely being untruthful to myself.

I'd like to think I tried things differently, to try and connect in a way that maybe all of us weren't used to, and may appreciate. I acomplished that. And I do feel most people have appreciated this. But aside from how I may feel about yesterday, with that situation completely removed, I began to feel like it was my job to perform on here, and this is not my arena. I also feel that it is time to seperate, at least for the time being, from the notion of following people that I have met through my @ replies. I don't know if this will ever change back, and this is not a punishment but a much healthier usage of this platform. This is something I came to the conclusion on months ago, though I kept fighting with myself over it, going back and forth.

To anyone that was in my timeline, I had a lot of fun and learned a lot of things, but in some ways it started to feel like exclusion, and that is never something I was a fan of. I may follow people in this way again, because it is my account of course, and it may even happen tomorrow, but at this moment the bulk of this type of interaction needs to come to an end. Please don't take any of this personal.

Even this much explaining doesn't suit me, but I feel that it is a position I have put myself in, and I'd like to go back to what I'm good at. So again, moving toward the future and changing, it is what I will do.

Thanks for listening/reading and I will see you all out here, out there, wherever we end up,
G
 
 
03 March 2014 @ 09:52 pm
Twitter Post: Gerard  
It would have been a fairly simple matter to not write a letter. We can often re-establish ourselves through simple action as opposed to words but that hasn’t been my style this year as I have become more open and connected. Which has been, like all things, both positive and negative. And if you are a casual follower then please, go about your normal business unless you feel there might be something in this letter for you. I am very close to having my own place on the web to put things like this.

1 year.

A year in and I had always thought I would take a look at things once it had passed since the breakup of the band. I saw a lot of great things, a lot of honesty and a lot of courage, a lot of self expression through words or art or feelings and it was rewarding to know you are followed, through your art, by people of such passion, conviction, and self awareness.

I have, for some time, felt that connecting too close would bring with it some negative things. Things out of my control but things nonetheless, and of course I was right, though this did not deter me from continuing to be open. But the last few months have felt different. And it wasn’t specifically any one event but the building up of many, and the sound of too much white-noise. Too much access leading to only the same type of confusion and unrest that I have seen throughout the year. But again I want to stress that all of this has been good progress and good learning. Positive and negative.

As an artist, I am continually reminded and encouraged to be of limited access to the audience. But I found that this is not my way- well, not all of the time. Actually it is both in and out of access I need to be. There is a time and a place for both. I have learned this.

When I started being open for the first time in what felt like ages, it truly did feel that it was helping. Helping some of us get through for sure but it also helped me a great deal in accepting things. It became a kind of therapy for me, and even the occasional anger and frustration I would field all added up in my head, creating a large broad-stroke picture.

The thing that was mildly disheartening, and resulting in somewhat of a restructuring of how I operate, is the division, or the need to create fantasies of separation in order to cure anger, boredom, or frustration.

It is difficult for people, including myself, to see the truth for what it is- again because it is boring, and it doesn’t agitate or excite us in the same way as a fantasy, like a drug. But in the year, something that stood out was witnessing a fair amount of people try to divide up a situation, like a band, into “camps” or “sides”. Literally seeking to pull apart the very friends that created the reason we even have a dialogue, why you are even interested. If I could say there is any kind of behavior that I would rather not have witnessed it was that. The aims of the confused or bored. But I’m glad that I did because it makes sense- that in all the chaos of a break-up people needed an order of things, and a side to take, fictitious in origin as they may be.

But I think the thing that I learned the most, and have come to embrace, is the simple fact that you cannot, and will not take everyone with you. As an empath it is in our nature to want to reach everyone, share with everyone, get everyone to love each other to keep the feeling in the room somewhat manageable for the empathetic as opposed to the rollercoaster of extreme emotions which tend to feel like going from feeding ducks in a pond to witnessing a car accident. It’s the same when playing live for ten people or ten thousand. A rush-in of emotion, good and bad, it becomes the performers job to then inspire a positive connection throughout the audience, that they then share, though we can sometimes fail at this, and often it is because of a very vocal and negative minority. The performer lets that bit get through the wall and it starts to fall apart. You have seen it before when going to see your favorite band live. I call it “the one-finger” rule, and a person that possesses a desire for a negative reaction a “one-finger” because it is usually within an audience of a thousand raised sets of hands in togetherness that, if you look hard enough, you will find the one middle-finger extended out. Almost 100% of the time it isn’t negative but the desire for a reaction, which is all any of us really want- a reaction. To be loved.

Know this, that I am aware it exists and I’m also aware it is small. I am aware it is simple noise, easily tuned out if in the right headspace, which we are all capable of. I would like to imagine that all of us, including my friends know this as well. I don’t generalize a tremendous fanbase like this one. It would be naïve. The outpouring of positive emotion and support for an idea and it’s individuals has been unmanageable in it’s size. So thank you.

But it has always been my job to create, not ask you what I should create before I do it, as that would do you an enormous disservice. This time I do not seek a bubble, or to close myself off. I seek to keep the thread alive, but a thread and not an alarm. This year has been a lot of fun and I feel now that I know you all more, even if I never responded to you, than I ever did before and what I have come to know is love, and how different each one of us is, and how much we all have to share.

I’ve got a lot of work to do this year, and I would love it if you joined me but I understand if you cannot. I will be here, creating, regardless, and it’s going to be a lot of fun.

G

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21 January 2014 @ 09:35 am
Twitter Post: Gerard  
“Fake Your Death”

Somewhere in the liner notes for “May Death Never Stop You”, there are written statements about each song on the collection. These statements were contributed by the members of the band and reflect their personal thoughts on the songs (dispersed to members at random). There is however, one song that bears no statement.

I consider “Fake Your Death” to be the “last MCR song”, and to me, it is absolutely the final fully realized collaboration between the members of the band. Oddly, or fittingly, it was written while the Los Angeles Kings beat the New Jersey Devils and won the Stanley Cup, though this did not inform or inspire the song as I was unaware (along with James and Doug) that this was happening and have only a small interest in sports. After the game, the rest of the band had arrived at the studio where we added elements to its existing structure, fleshing it out some more, and it started to form.

What was not so obvious at the time was that the song was, and would serve as, a eulogy for the band, though I should have known it from the lyrics. I think internally I did, as I felt an odd sense of sadness and loss after hearing back the words on top of the music. I also felt a strange sense of pride in how honest it was, and could not remember a band recording a song of this nature, being so self-aware. Ending felt like something honest, and honest always feels like something new.

So it will exist, and it is no cowardly act to release something of this nature, but a service to those who believed in a band that did not compromise, and a wave goodbye to all. And yes, it is fucking heartbreaking.

And while I don’t believe the lyrics of the chorus today- I did at the time, which to me is a core ingredient to the music of MCR. And it is through that belief, and yours, that we were able to achieve many beautiful things.

-G.Way, Los Angeles, 1-20-14



Mod Note: May Death Never Stop You is available for preorder on mychemicalromance.com.